The closer I get to graduation the more I start to think about ‘next year.’ I feel like I only talk about ‘next year’ when I mention the future, as if this one year is all I’m gonna get haha. Let’s hope that’s not true. But there’s this thing that keeps me up at night, this thing that keeps popping up inside my head. This thing I want each and everyone of you to realise as much as I do.
That it’s up to you. No matter the situation you are in, no matter what kind of new life you’re about to enter, no matter the context… it’s always up to you.
For example, when I graduate I own absolutely nothing except for my degree. I work a part time job at a local restaurant while working as an intern during the day time. These two jobs will barely get me the opportunity (financially) to rent a place to live on my own or to make a big investment to start my own business. But, the thought of that doesn’t make me feel bad. To be honest, the fact that I own ‘nothing’ and my life is about to start all over again makes me very excited.
It’s the kind of excitement you feel when you’re out of coffee and someone offers you a refill. The refill as a metaphor for your new life. I’m laughing about myself right now as I’m typing this hahah.
I’ve been talking to some other students about some of my aspirations to start my own business and all they said were things like: ‘yea, I’d love to do that too, but…’ there’s always a: ‘but…’ Never a: ‘you know what, let’s go for it.’ I’m 22 when I graduate. I think it’s an absolute robbery of your own life, your own soul… when you don’t even allow yourself to experiment, to dive into the deep, dark ocean, to give things a try… at such a young age.
I don’t own ‘anything,’ I just told you, no place of my own, no business (yet,) no children or whatsoever. But in the main time, I own something a lot of people don’t even realise, something I didn’t realise for a long time. I own a change, a blank page, a shot in the dark. Nothing relies on it… and that’s so valuable.
So what are you gonna do when the times comes and it’s up to you? Settle for less? Waste your money on ‘saver things.’ Like a book you already know the ending of right after reading the first page? Like I said, it’s up to you. But let me tell you, it’s one life, it’s this life… and it’s beautiful. Even on your darkest days, even when you’re afraid everything you ever dreamed of is going to fall down right in front of you. You need to hold on. Because one day, you’ll be so happy you held on to what you believed in, because it brought you to today.
There is no such thing like a ‘path’ or a life that was planned for you the second you were born, nobody is born for misery and nobody is born for luck. Some people consider themselves very lucky while other people might feel sorry for them. It’s a mindset and it’s up to you.
Lot’s of Love,