I haven’t been really active lately, on the blog, my Instagram, I guess my private life in general. I’ve been focussing on my exams and my internship which starts tomorrow. I’m happy, confused, sad and excited in the same time, because my last semester is about to start and after that… comes graduation. I have absolutely no idea what the future holds, once I had it all figured out but right now, I just don’t know anymore.
I feel like I’ve been feeling down and confused for months already, I mean I still do all the things I need to do and still get my work done. But the ‘fire’ is gone, I’d rather lay in bed the entire day instead of going out for a walk or going over to friends. That’s unusual, because most of the time – when I’m feeling good and I’m acting like myself – I am very energetic and always on the go, joking around or being creative. Lately, that’s just not the case, I wake up in the morning and I can’t wait for the day to be over, it really is time to find happiness again…
I know for a fact that laying in bed all day isn’t going to ‘light my fire’ again and won’t make me happy at all. And beside that, it’s not that I feel bad all the time because I do experience moments of happiness, it’s just that I know that I can feel so much more because I felt it before. I wish this post was more about giving you advice on how to find your happiness again but I don’t feel like my advice is relevant because it’s not working out for me.
But I do think that the number one thing you should always try to set for yourself, is a goal. Something to work towards or to save money for etc. I’m talking about a personal goal, not something society expects you to set as a goal, like graduating. Graduation for sure is an important goal but for me it’s not something to put my mind on in order to ‘light my fire.’ I’m talking about a trip, a business, maybe you have always wanted to write a book, things like that. Something that excites you even when you only think about it.
Honestly, maybe I do have one piece of advice for you in order to find your happiness. Open your heart. For love, adventure, a rollercoaster of emotions, however you want to call it. Because at the end of the day life becomes a lot more precious and meaningful if you get to share it with someone special. Sure, protect your heart and choose wisely but don’t close all the doors. Don’t ever think that a life lived alone is the best life possible, I thought that for a while. But when the right person comes around the corner you’re whole world is swept of it’s feet and you’ll experience yourself that life just got a little more precious. Yes, it’s scary and it can be really difficult sometimes, since you’re two different persons and both of you have different emotions, fears and troubles but love will find a way. Nobody can really understand how or why love works the way it works, but I don’t think we should want to understand the magic. That’s why it’s love.
So, in order to find happiness… please be kind to one another, set goals and open up you’re heart. This life is way to special to sit around lonely while it can be shared and lived in a much more intens way.
Lot’s of love,
Photography by: Liza van de Ven